i hate my job

that's not exactly true, i actually love the work that i do, but i do hate my boss.

i work for a book review site and the seeing books before they come out and getting them to reviewers is amazing. i genuinely love finding some unknown authors and connecting them with a reviewer to be able to get them a bit more attention. plus, i've been able to hold and read the books of friends before they come out, which has been amazing!

my boss, however, is the co-owner of the site, and he simply has zero morals.

while i'm still working there, i don't want to get into the details about the things i don't like, but rest assured that story will be coming as soon as i can.

i know plenty of people would be thinking, "ok, so go find another job," and really, that's fair. the problem though, is that working a job i don't like saps the energy from me in a way that it is really difficult to do anything about the situation. 

when i started at the job in september of 2021 the red flags started to show themselves fairly quickly, but i was also going to school online at the time, and the schedule was perfect to allow me to keep doing my schoolwork. 

i took on more hours in february, but it still worked really well with school because the hours are pretty flexible, and the same thing that happens with every job really set in... no matter how i feel about the job, i also can't stand to not do it full out. 

in may i had a bit of a mental break (more to come about that later, maybe) that prompted me to take an indefinite break from school, and basically broke my will. so the summer was spent basically just existing, and making it through day by day.

but i am definitely working on finding a new job, which will be evident in tomorrow's post.