i hate job hunting

i wrote previously about how i hate my job, which is mostly a problem because i also hate job hunting.

and who doesn't, really?

i really didn't like the job that much as soon as i started learning about the owner, but it was a decent filler job while i was in school. just something to bring in enough money to get by while taking classes, and then i'd get a teaching job and be done with the place.

well, the mental break i had in may included me stopping going to school, as well as realizing that i don't think i could be a teacher after all. 

so now, the job isn't just a filler, it's an anchor. i spent the summer just existing; getting through each day with no energy to do anything more than go to work and come home. i did occasionally apply for a job through indeed, probably 12 over the course of a month, but i never got anything from it, and i didn't have the motivation to keep up with no response.

it doesn't help that while not extreme, i experience the reverse of what many know as seasonal affective dissorder (SAD), so the heat definitely took a toll on me too. as soon as the weather turned cooler though, some of the haze lifted and i've been able to do a lot more. 

i have more energy, and i can see a light at the end of the tunnel that is this job, and living in this house. funny, one of the things that started to get me back on track was some car trouble i had at the beginning of october. (definitely writing about that soon!)

now that i have some focus, i've borrowed some professional tops from my mom, and i'm hoping to feel well enough tomorrow after work to find some pants to go with them. after that, it'll be contacting a temp agency and seeing if i can't get some interviews through them for temp-to-hire jobs.

from the searching i've already done, the jobs similar to ones i've had in the past are paying at rates that, if i go up to 40 hours a week, will basically double my take home pay.

so even though i hate job hunting, i'm diving in, and getting a temp agency to do the work for me!