i hate where i live

i currently rent a room in a decent sized house, and the space i live in is lovely. 

while i'm not great at taking compliments or recognizing things i'm good at, one exception to that is my living space. it's a large space for just a bedroom, but not for a whole living space, but i've managed to make do. my general aesthetic is matte black, plants, and things i like, which results in what i find to be a very comfortable atmosphere in the space available to me.

fortunately for everyone here, this is a five bedroom, five bathroom house, so the five adults who live here basically each have our own studio, with a shared kitchen. 

unfortunately, that means that we have to share a kitchen.

also, living with roommates is a version of hell for me because so often people don't think of others when doing, well, anything. 

i have tried to talk to my roommates multiple times about letting doors slam shut because i not only hear it, but i feel it in my room, and it makes no difference in what they do. 

i will fairly regularly leave my phone or tv playing in my room and walk to other parts of the house to see how the sound travels throughout the house. the amount of times i've asked roommates to turn down their music or tv suggests that i am the only roommate who does this. 

in the past few months i have started to wear noise cancelling headphones to watch tv or listen to anything on my phone. unfortunately, the shaking of my room when doors are slammed isn't a noise that my headphones can cancel out, and days with a lot of tv time end up with my ears hurting from the headphones, so i end up irritated that i have to do it at all!

and then there's the utility bills. most of the roommates here will adjust the thermostat without thinking of how that's going to impact the bill at the end of the month, but then they complain about the costs of things that we don't have control over. there's no logic to it, and it's a huge source of stress for me. 

i don't think this is an issue of my specific roommates - though the ones who have never lived outside of their parent's house definitely could learn a few things that would help the situation - but just living with people at all. 

housing costs suck though, so this is the best i can afford for the moment, and i'm stuck.

so even though my immediate home environment is lovely, i hate where i live.

(the pic is old, i've rearranged since this, but is a placeholder until i can get another one!)